WARNING! VENTING IN PROGRESS!

So...this is suppose to be our first night of bible school and by the way it is the first year that Gavin can attend. Chris and I talk about it and decide that he is perfectly capable of going so I will just call the person in charge (who by the way I know) and talk to her about his food allergies and his other issues. So I call her and ask her who his teacher is going to be so that I can get there early to talk to he or she about things. She ask me what is up so I begin to tell her about the food allergies and then I go into THE CONVERSATION.

This conversation should not be a big deal. Gavin is very normal in so many ways that sometimes Chris and I even forget that there is anything wrong. But, when you are trying to explain Pervasive Developmental Disorder - Not Otherwise Specified (PDD-NOS) to someone you might as well be speaking in a language from Mars. So, I have reverted to saying that he is on the Autism Spectrum, but that he is Very high functioning. I usually go on to say that he is perfectly normal until he is not, meaning that most of the time he acts like a rowdy 4-year-old boy.

The problem is that when people hear Autism they see Rain Man. All they hear is the word and then they stop listening. Back to THE CONVERSATION. The lady wanted to know if he was verbal, and I assured her that he was. I also assured her that I would not bring him unless he could function well there. I really do want success for him and he can be successful at this. In fact he can be more successful at this than a lot of children that I see at Walmart that have no diagnosis!

Now, for all of you positive peeps I know that this is an attack of the enemy on me, b/c I have been struggling with my sweet Gavin. So, here I am sitting and I am going to pray that I will go and hang out with him tonight, and not be spiteful, enjoy the extra time with just him, and pray that the fruit of the Spirit will be evident in me.

Just remember that we all know you can't judge a book by it's cover and you can't always judge a child by his or her diagnosis! Love You All!

"Stolen Kisses"

For most of you I am sure you are asking yourselves, "What in the world is she talking about?" But there are a handful of you that know my sweet Gavin and our struggles with his unique qualities. One of those blessed qualities is that he is not affectionate in that he rarely receives it and even less often gives it. It has only been in the past 4 months that I have been able to kiss him on the top of the head and him not have a complete meltdown. Well, I am pleased to announce that for about the past week I have been able to "steal" some kisses on the top of his forehead and the side of his face!!!! It is almost as if he doesn't even notice, but hey I'll take it.

Like I said you all can celebrate this V-I-C-T-O-R-Y with me and continue to pray with me that one day he just might kiss me, but until then I'm going to enjoy my "stolen kisses."